i haven't written in ages.  i haven't felt like there's been anything write-worthy happening.  just lots of lazy summer days and the whirl of back to school mayhem.  i've registered for a correspondence course but i have not even opened the textbook for it yet.

today i feel left out.  i feel left out at work.  i'm outside of the loop.  beyond the wire.  not wanted.  the last to be picked in gym class.  on the outside looking in.

it's always been like this.  my whole life.  there's very few times where i've been on the inside looking out at all the losers.  this job is not one of those jobs.  i am always feeling left out.

left out of lunches.
left out of previous experiences
left out of meetings
left out of chats
left out of dinners
left out of suppers out
left out of emails

just plain left out.

it hurts.